My Prayer Tonight

Dear God,
Tomorrow is a big day for me for many reasons.  I will get to tell my story to the tri state area on KFVS 12 news.  It is so important that what I say and how I come across to others can make the difference needed to benefit my cause.  Please be with me as I speak each word for the truth and help me to portray only factual information, for many lives are at stake here.  Lord, I realize that there are cancer patients that have lost their battles while taking the drug Avastin, and some that have died due to the side effects of Avastin.  I pray for those families as these recent news flashes about the drug probably bring back the sting of death to them.  I also know Lord that with every cancer drug, there are severe risk that we are willing to take in exchange for life.  I'm asking that those that have a negative feel for the drug Avastin due to any side effect to please take a moment to think of other chemo drugs like Adriamicyn, and Taxol and many more that also come with the same amount of lethal risk.  There is no good answer to cancer treatment.  We would love a cure to all cancers as soon as possible, but until that time comes Lord, please allow those that are benefiting from the drug Avastin to be able to continue its use.  Be with me as I share my story that I am able to show people that I am LIVING with cancer due to this drug.  Please let me remember to share with everyone that I monitor my health with nearly every heartbeat and I am in my doctors office as often as most people drive through fast food restaurants.  Please help me to encourage all cancer patients to become their own advocates in their health care and to go to their doctors as they feel needed as well.
Lord you know the first thing that I did when I was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer.  I sold my house, moved to the country and bought horses.  I was raised around horses and wanted my 5 year old at the time to have some great memories with her mommy and horses.  Little did I know that 6 years later, I would be the mother of the biggest horse fan in the world that rides daily, rodeos and collects every Breyer horse that has a historic meaning.  I got my horse loving girl alright, and now I want to continue to be here for her.
Please Lord, let my voice make a difference for me and my family and for so many more out there just like me. 
Also thank you for bringing me in touch with some of the most amazing people ever.  Thanks to the kind ladies at Macy's tonight that were so helpful.  Thank you for all the people that have joined me on this fight. 
And Lord, on a lighter note, please make sure I look as good as I can.  You know how much I hate to be in front of a camera.  I don't ask for miracles, just make sure that I'm as neat as I can be, that my zipper stays zipped and that my pants don't fall down!!  I knew you would laugh at that.

Thanks for everything!

In Christ Name,
Amen